You have won this round. I admit to defeat and am waving the white flag of shame.
It's not often that I find myself in this position and, in fact, I pretty much wanted to hide it from the world but alas in the interest of being a brutally honest anonymous person on the internet I am coming clean.
There are too many things going on in my life right now that demand more attention than I can reasonably provide without burning myself out and I had to say goodbye to one of them.
So, it pains me to say this, but the fact that I would not be dealing craps and the fact that other life pressures need my attention I had to say goodbye to the casino job that I have barely gotten to know and have been pretty excited about. I feel like shit about the decision but I know that it is the right one for where I am at in life right now. I explained some things to HR and let them know that I hope I will be able to be rehired once life sorts itself out and I will continue to work on my dealing skills in the form of Craps, Blackjack and other random carnival games as time provides.
I felt that if I continued to work at the Casino for 24-32 hours per week and stayed full time at the retail job with some other things that are going on demanding my attention which I can only give during hours when I should rightfully be sleeping, that I would burn out and potentially cause damages that would be worse than if I just admitted defeat at this moment.
I will pull back and regroup, I will continue to study and improve and I will come back to perusing this dream once I add a bit more stability and balance into my life.
It's not the cool thing to do, but it felt like the right thing to do.
Now, so that this isn't full of depression I link you to some humor. Visit AmazingSuperPowers to see more awesomeness.
With that I am probably going to sleep very soon and won't be waking up until tomorrow when I can wake up refreshed and figure out how to proceed from here.
I appreciate you all coming along for the ride so far and I'm looking for some insults from the peanut gallery telling me how I'm a silly Nancy boy and that winners never quit.
:)
Insult Serge? Fuck yeah!! I won't say it here but since you opened up floor, expect my texts shortly. On a serious note, you have NOT been defeated. You have made a decision that is right for you, that is always the right thing to do. Furthermore for as long as we have known each other you have talked about this dream job. The pain of setting it aside for now it untellable. Fact of the matter is you set a goal you ACHIEVED it!! That's fantastic and we are all proud of you. Remember one thing delayed satisfaction is one of the measures of adulthood. We all appreciate your honesty. Now go watch Asian porn and eat dorritos, all will be right in the world.
ReplyDeleteOMFG You pansy! lol jk. Baby, you have to go with your gut instincts and it sounds like you did just that. Good for you. You still have the skills for whenever you want to use them.
ReplyDeleteYou proved that you can get the job. There's no use doing it if it's going to make you miserable. Asian porn and Doritos, eh? :P
ReplyDeleteBelieve ME Coach, I know. Personally I like bondage and McDonald's but meh.
ReplyDeleteThat's a great title for a blog - 'Bondage and McDonald's'...
DeleteOn a different note I fed the black fish for ya!
ReplyDeleteHe gets ignored far too often
DeleteThe casino jobs will always be there. I saw what hours you would be working and it would not be good for your health. You could have fallen asleep driving to a job. Waiting till you can work a more reasonable schedule is a good idea. I'm pullin 50hr weeks now and even that's rough. Your schedule would have been brutal
ReplyDeleteGeez, you are a dick! Oh wait -- you are not the REAL Waffles. Sorry.
ReplyDeleteHey man, life is about taking steps in the right direction, which you have done, and making the best decisions for yourself, which you have also done. The dream is still there, waiting for the right time.
Dude, you didn't surrender shit. It's a strategic retreat. If Hitler understood the value of a strategic retreat he'd have captured Stalingrad and Kursk, and much, for better or worse, would have been different.
ReplyDeleteNothing wrong with regrouping, lad. Chin up.
Anytime I get any type of comparison to Hitler my day has been made and as such you win the comment of the day award Gary!
DeleteThanks
LOL. Gary mad a rather, um, bizarre comparison to you and Hitler, and did it to pretty much the only man alive who instead of being deeply insulted by the comment, is actually honored!
DeleteAnd then after comparing you to Hitler, he says "Chin up"!
I have to agree, this could be the comment of the year, not just the day!
I sent Gary an email about Hitler a few days ago. Maybe he still had him in the brain.
DeleteYes, obviously you are the reason he made the reference
DeleteHitler?! I'm.working on my questions. I'm drunk.
ReplyDeletesup grouchi
ReplyDeletei was thinkin its a pretty sick schedule n no way i could do it
is there no way you can job share/ get reduced hours in retail? or maybe fri sat sun at casino as will be their busiest times? =(
Fboy
Unfortunately for about the next two months I have to remain full time getting 40/week at the Retail job.
DeleteSo, I think my plan is now going to be to wait that out and when I'm in a position where I am able to go part time there to start seeking casino employment again.
I guess this frees me up some time to start hitting the gym again though
Thanks to everyone who responded, especially those who at least started with an insult.
ReplyDeleteWhen I'm down I love to be insulted - it actually helps the creative side of my mind function and gets me back to a better state (this is the opposite of a relationship though - then I just tend to get mean and fight like a woman lol).
So, y'alls appreciated and hopefully I can post something funny in the near future.
Also, hope you guys enjoyed the ASP comic - I love those guys.
I liked the ASP cartoon but I have to say, I wouldn't have had the problem the guy in the cartoon had, an old guy in a beard wouldn't do it for me even with a killer female body attached.
DeletePlus I see that big, bushy beard and have to assume that's not the only thing big and bushy, if you catch my drift.
I dunno, that small, tight bikini makes it a bit hard to hide something so big and bushy without some external help.
DeleteHowever, get the bikini off and *BOING* you discover that he does, indeed, just tuck it back between the legs.
You lazy bastard. Here I was planning a trip to Vegas next week for the sole purpose of trying--and no doubt failing--to find that god-foresaken casino that hired you and you do this? I mean, I was totally counting on getting lost trying to find it so I would get a blog post out of that, then I'd get another blog post about hassling you while you dealt, and you do this to me?
ReplyDeleteYes, it's all about ME!
Seriously, man, I'm sorry you had to make this decision but as others mentioned, it will turn out for the best. The schedule was a killer and if you have that plus other things on your plate, it would be too tough to pull off. You yourself will know when you're in a better position to attempt this.
I'm sure you haven't burned any bridges and those jobs will always be out there. I hope you figured out a way to keep in practice so your newly acquired skills stay intact.
I guess since I won't be able to heckle you at work, we'll just have to schedule some time to play poker together while I'm up there.
Rob, I am sorry that I have righteously insulted you by tucking my tail and running - however I will make it up with POKER sessions at BSC and possibly elsewhere and hopefully some good burgers and tits.
DeleteBurgers and tits are a great combination, what's not to like? I mean, as long as your not an Orthodox Jew, that is (I'm most definitely not). For them, you cannot mix meat and dairy.
DeleteSpeaking of which, my friend has a restaurant and they have a gal there with an obvious boob job. She was wearing a fairly low cut top one day and was serving an elderly couple. After she left the table, she overheard the elderly woman say to her husband, "tits on a tray." Never heard that term before, nor had my friend? Have you?
Poker at BSC with you sounds great. I'm sure Prudence will be happy to see you. She's asked about you!
You guys are bugging
DeleteRob - I can't wait until I can start playing poker consistantly again.
DeleteThis way when you come into town it will be "hey, I'll be here from xx to xx, see ya" and not "can grrouchie come out and play this week?" heh
Carmel - your young person vernacular is wasted - bugging has been good and bad depending on the decade it was used, I don't know where it currently stands now.